Defeatist or Elitist: The ABD Chronicles
Jan 09,2017
When problems arise do you retreat to your corner of self-doubt, pity or insecurity?♍ Do you lash out at others be🍎cause you have not found ways to healthily deal with your anger?
I am currently an ABD person, an All But Dissertation person. After years of studying my time in my Doctorate program came to an end. At the same time I checked myself into the hospital for a terrible cold. My test results were normal. The doctors say I am aꩲdjusting to a climate change after moving from California to Florida.
I struggled 💝with the seemingly inevitable during the last semester that I was in the program. I tried the entire semester to find funding through the form of a scholarship. I looked for jobs that would maybe give me a signing bonus. I asked family members and organizations for the money. I never received financial assistance. I became angry at some people for not doing what the spirits told me that they possibly could.
I worked to secure funding until the Wednesday of finals week. I moved back home that Satur🦹day. My boyfriend’s father fell ill and cancelled our ride to the airport two hours before I needed to be at the airport. I cried profusely into my boyfriend’s chest. I spent my entire semester spreading less than liveable wages over two weeks at a time. And now this.
Once I stopped crying I remembered that my friend X (named X in order to protect his privacy) might be able to give me a ride. X did not say previously🐭 that he would be available that night. I just thought that my boyfriend and I are close friends with him and that we help X run errands sometimes and vice versa. I told my boyfriend to call X. When X, my boyfriend and myself were on the way to the airport X told me that he heard a phone ringing in his head the night before and that I was on the line! He knew a few hours before I called that I was going to call. At that moment I was not upset at my failure to secure a place to live in California. I was not angry at people for not donating money for my education. I was able to stay in school an extra year in part because an anonymous donor gave me a scholarship. Things that are supposed to happen will happen. You can achieve goals in the time designated for you.
I am currently getting many interview requests. When I was in school I did not have much interviewing activity. I believe that now is my time to work. I w𝔉ill work and return to school within 2.5 years. The universe has a way of letting you know the proper times and places to conduct your life goals. Go with it.
Moreover, I’m a very spiritual person- often able to determine the evil from the healthy spirits. I’ve learned, however, to take more inventory about revealing some things to some peopl💎e. Some people are not supposed to know your thoughts and are not ready to receive them. I don’t apologize to others for some of the stories I’ve written about. There are people in this world- alot of them- who are going through a similar situation as me. Less than ten percent of Americans have a master’s degree. I know that I wil𝔍l be able to reach someone through writing because of the quick and massive audience that writing reaches.